I have been learning lessons about the positive and negative impacts that land can have on people for years. In the beginning, I did not realise that the issues I was dealing with were anything to do with the land we had just bought. I said the problems were due to other things which was at least partly right. The reason some things got totally out of hand was that being on a certain piece of land magnified these issues.
It took years to work out what was really going on. The impact of that land was so severe on three people that I suspect it contributed to their deaths. Another fifteen or so others had health struggles that I believe were made worse by being on that land.
Eventually, I realised that just being on that land messed with my head. Any negative thinking was magnified. What should have been positive was overwhelmed by negative ideas. There were even times when I should have accepted things were not going to work out but believed that they could do so because of the impact the land had on me. Now that is really and truly messing with your head.
There were so many layers and implications of being on this land that I am not sure if I have appreciated them all yet. As I am writing this I am seeing more and it is making me realise what a trap I was in. If the only way of moving forwards out of a situation is accepting that it will not work out and the impact of being on that land is that you believe that things will improve how do things change.
How wrong thinking kept me stuck for years
I had a serious problem and I had two options. Stay where I was and find ways of changing the situation. Or I could escape. OK fairly obvious really. I refused to take the escape route for years because I believed I could change the situation.
Maybe I could have made some positive changes in the right circumstances but the only changes that happened were negative. I had a boatload of bad advice and the impact of that was magnified by the influence of the land. I found myself in a downward spiral until I ended up all not just stuck in the mud but all but buried by it.
Yet despite that, I could not see the only escape route. Well, I could but there were so many reasons not to take it. It was like a door was there but it was covered by thick layers of vegetation that had grown up over years that stopped me taking it. These layers were more numerous and some were thicker and more luxuriant because of the impact of the land.
Something that struck me as I started writing this is that it was the fact that other people stopped spending as much time on the land that enabled me to get free. My reasoning goes like this. Whatever was using the land to impact me wanted me to stay on that land so they discouraged any thoughts that would enable me to leave.
My freedom came because someone else stopped spending as much time on the land which then made it easier for them make the decision that they did not want me on that land. In other words, the less time they spent on the land the less of an impact it had on their thinking and the easier it was for me to be released.
It is not all negative
I realised a long time ago that if we are going to have good things then we need to be aware that there are ways that they could be used for wrong purposes. For example, it can be risky giving someone money because they could spend it on the wrong things. Yes, the intention is to help someone but they can use what you intended for good in a way that causes harm. Therefore if we are going to have the blessing of positive things in relation to land then God has to take the risk of that same mechanism being used to harm us.
After years of discovering how it is possible for land to have a negative impact on people, I am starting to discover the positive impact it can have. I have discovered somewhere that has literally soaked up so much love that the very fabric of the building exudes love. You walk into the empty building and you can feel the love and acceptance of the generations of people who have used that building.
Just being in the building brings a sense of peace and loving acceptance. It is a place where misunderstandings are resolved simply because of the willingness to talk and then lovingly accept the point of view of others. People who come in from outside don’t know what it is that they can feel but they know there is something special about the atmosphere of the place.
How this affects you?
The impact that land has on you, whether positive or negative could be one of the factors that is leading to your frustration. It was while I was experiencing such negative effects from the land that I felt that the future I wanted was far far away.
It is not just the land but the environment around us that has an impact on how we feel. I don’t know about you but when I am surrounded by untidiness and mess it promotes negative thoughts. Actually, that can be a vicious circle can’t it? We don’t feel up to doing what is necessary to improve the environment around us so we don’t. We then feel worse and when that happens it can become increasingly difficult to break the cycle. Of course, once we make the effort to do something we feel better. We then spark an upward spiral that carries us on so that we do more for a while. Well, we do until we let things go again and we head downwards again.
Of course, my excuse is there are too many other things that I should be doing for me to spend time tidying up or filing notes. They are the things that get squeezed out of my day but of course that eventually catches up with me. As you might have guessed planning and then maintaining focus on the task at hand do not come easily to me. Or maybe it would be better to say that I struggle what to say no to.
I don’t know about you, but there are times when I find it hard to stay on an even keel and maintain a positive outlook. Part of the problem is what I can see and feel in the environment around me. That concentrates my mind somewhat and I make the effort to do the little jobs that will make me feel better. Daft thing is that 3 or 4 hours later when I have caught up I look around and feel so much better because most of the little things that were draining my positivity have been dealt with.
It might sound relatively unimportant but creating a good environment around those you want to help is important. They need to feel respected and cared for and one way of doing this is by taking care of the environment around them. It has also set me a challenge for the future how do I find places that have such a positive feel about them that they make it easier to do what I am trying to do rather than harder.